Lost?

Sometime,
I don't really know what I want..
I don't really know what am I feeling..
I don't really know what is my purpose..

But all I know is..
I have to continue living..
Living with all my might..
Without giving up..

Don't wait till it's too late...

I don't know what will happen to my life..
In the next minute,
The next day,
Or even the next month.

But what I know is that I should live my life to the fullest and not leaving any regret if I am not in this world anymore.
This is because we are not given the SECOND chance to turn back time to correct our MISTAKE as well as our REGRETS.

We should NOT THINK about what we CANT do,
But we should FOCUS on what we CAN do.

Think about what we will do if we are only given one more day to live.
The decision that we make in our final journey of life will be our most sincere decision.

All these thought appear in my head during the incident which will change my whole life..
However, God really did bless me in which I truly thank Him for ensuring my safety as well as helping me to grow.

GOD, I really THANK YOU for EVERYTHING. Really THANK YOU for ensuring our safety as well as teaching us a VALUABLE lesson in which we will remember it in our whole life. THANK YOU LORD.

Feeling of ME & YOU [Quoted from 'Kimi Ni Todoke']

How other people feel,

If you don't ask, you won't know.

Your own feeling..

If you don't say them out loud, other people won't know either.

If you don't understand,

Then you should work it out together.

Choices~

Everyday we have to make choices..
Choices are easy to be made..
But making a choice without regretting is hard..

Family~ Harmony~ Bond~

Family is easy to be built
But hard to maintain its harmony
And even harder to preserve its bond

Courage to speak...

I really, really, really hate myself for being like this..

Why can't I just express what's on my mind..
Why can't I just say out what I want..
Why am I so useless..
I really hope that I can express what I want but at the same time I really am afraid of argument..
I really want us to live peacefully..
Without any argument...

Sometime I wonder..
Is it really because I hate argument?
Or maybe is it because that I don't have the courage to speak what's on my mind..
And most of the time, I will choose the 2nd choice...

Father God, please give me more courage and wisdom..
So that I can speak out what's on my mind without hurting others or causes arguments..

Eternity~

What is ETERNITY?
From dictionary, it is something that last for a long time, boundless or forever...


However, QUOTED from a POEM..
Eternity is something that your heart need to feel..
'Every time I think of you, that is when I feel eternity..'

Sometimes...

Sometimes,
I really hate being here..
Conflicts always happen during my absence...
After my return, suffers always follow behind..

Why can't I lead a life without any conflict..
Without hatred for each other..
And without feeling hurt..

Sometime, I really hope that all the problem's will just disappear..
Disappear from my surrounding,
Disappear from my life,
And disappear from my world.

The One & Only One...

Is it really that hard for a PERSON to remain LOYAL..
Loving someone without having a CHANGE of HEART..

Why is it so HARD to find THE OTHER HALF that can stay with you throughout your life..
Without HURTING you and LEFT you alone..
Just to bring SADNESS to your life..
While they are enjoying themselves..

Hope I can find my 'ONE & ONLY ONE'..
Which will bring me happiness without hurting me..

P.S: I think this is what every GIRL's WISH for... Having their ONE & ONLY ONE which will bring them happiness..

Quote from 'Strobe Edge' Manga~

"LOVE"...
Even though it's such a simple emotion,
Why is it that just as YOU fall in love,
Things get difficult?

Recent feelings...

Sometimes...
I feel that I am useless..
Unable to do anything right..
Always making mistakes..
Unable to cheer up my friends when they are sad..

Feeling depressed now..
Wonder what I can do to help others, and not only causing troubles for people around me..
Will I ever be helpful to others?

Now, I need to try harder so that I will not cause troubles to others..
There is no any other way...

Expectation VS Reality

I always thought that after all these time,
I have become much more stronger...

But in reality,
I am still WEAK...

Meaningful Quote from ' A Gentleman Dignity'

After a GIRL heard 'I Love You' from a GUY

The word that they do not want to listen is 'I Am Sorry'

This is a very simple words

Yet many GUYS do not know this facts.

My Weakness Is At My Heart (Sawan Biang MV)

Even though I seldom watch Thai drama, but I have to admit that some of their story line really did attract my attention and is really nice to watch~ :D

Recently, I just finished watch a 'Thai' drama entitled 'Sawan Biang' 2008. The lyrics of the ending theme is super meaningful and I really like it.

This is a summary of the drama:-

Leela is going to get married in a few day but unfortunately, she and her groom have an accident. Her groom dies but she survives. Kid, their litigant, also loses his wife in that accident either. Anyway, he helps Leela for her medical treatment costs and take care and restore her mind's state.

After he knows about Leela, he falls in love with her and proposes her to marry him. Though she doesn't love him, she accepts to marry him. Later, when she knows that he has a son named Kawee, she want to take revenge with him because Kawee is a guy who she used to fall in love with when she was young, but he returns her with his arrogance.

Kid allows Leela to bring her family to live with him, so she bring her younger sister, Narin, younger brother, Rermrerk and her mother to live together. That enrages Kawee who disagree with his father's new marriage. When he knows that his new stepmother is younger than him and she is Leela, he hate her family too. He often quarrels with his father until one day, Kid is too tense because of quarreling with his son and has a heart attack and dies. Kawee is very sorry that he causes his father's death.

After Kid's funeral, his will is revealed to halve his property for Kawee and Leela, but he doesn't allow them to sell his house. Kawee and Leela's family live in the same house separately, but Leela who loves and hates Kawee keep nagging and argueing with him. Kawee hates his stepmother because he thinks that she steal his father's love from him.

When Kawee live in the same house with Narin, he always put his hatred and anger on sweet Narin, Leela's sister, everytime when he quarrels with Leela. With Narin's beauty and her sharp talk, Kawee involuntarily falls in love with her and keep being jealous of Pawan, a guy who has a crush on her.

This is the song of the 'Thai' drama with some preview of the drama~

This is the translation of the song in English subtitle~ :D

Song: Jood On Kong Chan Yoo Tee Hua Jai (My weakness is at my heart)
Artist: Aof Pongsak

I know myself I behave different.

Whatever I think, I just say it straight and care no one.

Just following what my head command me, though it's against my heart.

Asking myself for what I do, who I do it for.

Being sarcastic with myself...hurting myself, what do I get in return?

There're only shedding a tear...being confused and being vulnerable...

I have to be suffering and deeply hurt with all my body and heart.

My weakness is at my heart.

I pretend to be strong...I just act...but in fact, I'm almost dying.

I need love...need someone who understand me,

But I have to hide it inside.

Nothing else, in fact, my heart is weak.

I know that you don't love...don't care about me.

Deep inside, I almost melt away...I can't restraint my mind.

I pretend to not care, but in fact, my tears is flowing.

I'm hurt in my heart and can't find anyone who understand me.

(repeat *)

I don't want to let anyone know within my heart, how much I love you...

and love...with all my heart.

Know or Not To Know?

Sometime,
It is better if we don't know something..

This is because if we know, what should we do with it..
Should we keep in our heart or just express it out..

And from here..
Frustration will keep flowing and it will ruin the mood of the day..