Courage to speak...

I really, really, really hate myself for being like this..

Why can't I just express what's on my mind..
Why can't I just say out what I want..
Why am I so useless..
I really hope that I can express what I want but at the same time I really am afraid of argument..
I really want us to live peacefully..
Without any argument...

Sometime I wonder..
Is it really because I hate argument?
Or maybe is it because that I don't have the courage to speak what's on my mind..
And most of the time, I will choose the 2nd choice...

Father God, please give me more courage and wisdom..
So that I can speak out what's on my mind without hurting others or causes arguments..

Eternity~

What is ETERNITY?
From dictionary, it is something that last for a long time, boundless or forever...


However, QUOTED from a POEM..
Eternity is something that your heart need to feel..
'Every time I think of you, that is when I feel eternity..'