TEARS~

To be able to express yourself,

Especially when you are feeling down,

And not to be ashamed of it,

Reality may be cruel, but we are able to start with shedding tears and end it with a...

Smile ~

'First Love' Thai Movie

This movie is very touching....

In this movie, the girl made an effort to become more beautiful in order to attract the attention of the one she love..

However, the guy didn't show any interest in her..

And even make her heart break when she misunderstood him with another girl...

But, what she didn't know is that...

He also felt the same towards her...

And he did silently care about her...

Their future path have made them end their relationship till 9 years later...

When they meet each other again with the same feeling....

It is one of a very touching movie...

Why?

Why is it nowadays LIFE is not important...
Have it become so unworthy anymore..

IF it's NOT...

Then WHY is a 2 years old kid being knocked down not once but twice and 18 people that passed by did not even offer any help....
They just walked passed her as if there are watching a show...
The person that is being KNOCKED down is a HUMAN BEING and not a DOLL...
Why? Why they din't even offer to help..
If only they help, she may survive and maybe can avoid being knocked by the 2nd car..

SHE WAS KNOCKED AS IF SHE WAS A DOLL....
IT WAS SO SAD TO EVEN WATCH THE VIDEO...
SO WHY! WHY! THOSE WHO WAS ON THE SCENE CAN BE SO RELAX TO WALK PASSED HER..

SHE IS ONLY 2 YEARS OLD...
SHE ONLY STARTED TO SEE THIS WORLD...
AND THERE ARE MANY THINGS THAT SHE HAD NOT EXPERIENCE YET..
BUT NOW..
THERE IS NO MORE CHANCE FOR HER TO EXPERIENCE IT...
NOT A SINGLE CHANCE IS GIVEN TO HER....

Our LIFE is GIVEN by GOD....
SO IT SHOULD BE VERY VERY PRECIOUS than ANYTHING in this WORLD...
But, how come we treat as if LIFE IS NOT IMPORTANT anymore...
WHY! WHY!!

I REALLY DON'T UNDERSTAND....
WHEN HUMAN BEING BECOME SO COLD HEARTED.....

Is it really hard?

Is it really hard..
To find someone who will stay loyal to you,
Only LOOK at you,
Only THINK of you,
Only CARE for you

And try their best not to hurt you...
As hurting you will hurt them more....

But in this reality world, and not in DRAMA..
Does such person really exists?

Change Of Heart?

A person HEART can change as fast as the wind..

LOVE you at this moment,

but they can change the next moment..

Can't there be any HEART that is LOYAL?

And will not change even after a MILLENIUM..

If there is..

Then we wont be HURT...

Grateful~

Everything that happen in our life,

Whether it is good or bad,

Follow or against our own will,

We must feel grateful

As we are still alive

To be able to do the things we wanted...

Fall In Love lyrics (very meaningful)

Chinese Version


你无声无息
涌入了我心底
往事 却散落了一地
我从未留意
不小心爱上了你
可最后却要保持距离

爱恨的潮汐
往来交替
凋落着记忆
循环的周期
海风的气息
总是不经意
让我触及到
你在我心中如此清晰

不小心爱上你
沉醉入迷
谁来唤醒
这寂寞的海域
湛蓝的透明
你孤单的伤心
我思念的岛屿
找到所有这过往的足迹
爱情 却杳无音信

How long does it take to recover from HEARTBROKEN?

Currently, I wonder..
How long do I need to recover from heartbreaking?
Will I need a long long time or maybe I can recover within a few days..
Since I easily forget the sad experience that I faced..

I have only experience heartbreaking through drama and I will disappear after the drama end or when I didn't think about it..

But,
Actually how PAIN is it? And how long do I need to recover from it?
I really have no idea..

This may be absurd, but I would really like to experience the feeling of heartbroken..
Why?
So that I can grow stronger..

Juz a dream~

Sometime,
I really hope that I have a elder brother/sister,
which can take care/comfort me when I am sad..

But I know this is just my unrealistic dream..
And it will not come true in my whole life~~

My Favourite story~

This LOVE story I heard from a RADIO channel entitle 'The Last 10 Days'..
For me,
It was the most 'HEART JERKING' story that I have ever heard..
Each time I think about this story, I will feel touched and at the same time feel sorry for the Main Guy..


The story start with..
A = The Male Lead and the Female Lead Current Boyfriend, but because of his work he seldom care for his girlfriend.
B = The Female Lead. However, because of his boyfriend work, she find herself falling for other guy who care for her, New Boyfriend.
C = New Boyfriend of the Female Lead.

A have been dating B for some time now. However, due to A work, he seldom have the time to accompany B. B feel lonely and insecure as her boyfriend seldom spent time with her. Slowly, she started to shift her heart to C who spend most of his time comforting and care for her. A started to sense the changes in his girlfriend heart but he pretend as if nothing happen. He wanted to save their relationship so he suggest that they go on a 10 days trip to Korea, the place where they start their relationship. At first, B hesitate on whether she should go as she is feeling guilty for C. However, she decided to go as she want to know her true feeling.


A know that there is no way for him to win back his girlfriend heart. So, he just want to spend some precious time together and leave a nice memory before he leave. He also know that this will be the last time where they go on a trip together as a 'couple'.

The big day have arrive where they will begin their holiday, but each of them have already predict the ending of this trip. B not knowing that A already find out about her change of heart, act as if nothing happen and take it as her chance to know her own true feeling. On the outside, A seem to be very happy and eager about this trip but on the inside, he is really sad as A know that this will be his last 10 days in which he can spend time with her. During the journey on the plane, A wrote a postcard for B as they once promise each other that they will wrote a postcard to the other half when they traveled to a place. However, A slowly forget this promise as he is getting busier in his work. Knowing that this will be his last 10 days with B, he wanted to fulfill his promise to her.

When they arrive at their destination, they find a place to eat and as A went to the toilet, B called C and inform him that she safely reach the destination. From far, A saw what is happening and he saw the smile in B face which he had not seen for a long time. While feeling hurt and sad in the inside, he smile happily on the outside as if nothing happen when he faced B. A think that he make the correct decision of letting his girlfriend go after the journey.

However, when they are visiting various places, B remember their memory in the past and how happy they are during that time while A wrote a postcard in each places that they were visiting. As the 10 days is ending, B find back her love for A but A is ready to let her go as he prefer 1 person to suffer than having 3 of them to suffer and he is contented with the memory she left him.

Once they reach home, A fall sick and B decided to buy some medicine for him. However, during that time, C is already outside but A pretend he didn't notice and act as if nothing happen. During that time, B has decided to leave C as she found out she still love A more than she ever imagine. However, when she reach home, she didn't see A but she received some postcard of the places where they go and a letter.

Dear B,
When you read this letter, I have already left and went to a faraway place. Actually before our trip to Korea, I have realized that your heart is with someone else and not me anymore. I know that I cant win back your heart and did something really selfish without considering your opinion. However, I wanted to have a memorable memory with you before I let go of you. The 10 days that we spent in Korea will be the most happy moment in my life. Let it be the place where we start and end our relationship. I know you don't want to hurt me that's why you didn't tell me the truth. Don't feel sorry as it is my fault for not spending time with you and make you feel neglected. I hope that you will always be happy, just like when you're talking to the phone when we are in Korea.

P.s : I hope that the next time we met, we have found our own happiness.
                                                                                 Love You Always, A


B cried out loud as she finally realized the one she love is no longer with her. What will their ending be? Will they meet back?

There is a 2nd season, but I didn't get to listen to it. SAD..
I really like this story very much especially when the Male Lead, realized the person he love doesn't love it anymore, but he still love her very much that he don't want her to be sad. He willing to suffer on his own and not let the one he love to suffer. However, when the Female Lead realize that she still in love with the Male Lead, it is already too late...

But what will their ending be? I don't know as I miss the 2nd season of this wonderful story.
P/S: I cut some of the part as this story is 1 year ago as I may forget most of it.

Soulmate~

Recently,
Just finish a korean drama entitle 'Soulmate'

It is a wonderful drama..
Eventhough it have many flashback but I really enjoyed it..

Most of us hope that we can find our own SOULMATE..

SOULMATE which can..
Hear our thought,
Understand our feeling,
Help us when we are in need..
And love us with all their heart...

Addicted to Thai Drama for the last few days~

For the last few days,
I am addicted to Thai Drama..

My addiction to it was due to THE STORYLINE of the drama..

The 1st Thai drama which I watch is 'Sassy Love'
In this Thai drama, the 2 main lead in which they hate one another is forced to married..
As time pass by, they begin to fall for each other..
It is one of the Thai drama in which I like..

The 2nd Thai drama which I watch is 'Bpom Ruk Roy Adeed'
In this drama, the 2 main lead which is COUSIN (fake cousin)
However, they start to fall in love which is a FORBIDDEN LOVE...
Find out how the story end..

And the final Thai drama that I watch in the last few days is 'Sanaeha Ngern Tra'
In this drama, the male lead wanted to revenge on the female lead by making her fall in love with him..
However, during the journey of revenge, he fell in love with her...
Will they be able to get together or they are forced to separate eventhough both of them love each other?

Well, now I will return to Korean and Taiwanese drama...
Till I found a Thai drama that attract my attention...XDDD

Meaningful Lyrics~Bpom Ruk Roy Adeed (Thai Drama) entitle 'HATE MY OWN HEART' by Gliat Jai Dtua Eng

[Guy] I had to use so many tons of reasons so many times~
I've reminded myself not to remember but in the end~

I can't forget you~

You are still deeply embedded in my heart~

[Girl] I can't stop my heart, falling in deeper with each time~

When knowing that we can't fall in love~

But my heart has already blindly fallen in love~

What do you suggest me to do? ~

Please tell me~~

[Guy] I hate my heart, I can't force it~

Suppressing my heart everytime we are close~

I hate the temptation, the more I oppose it, the more its pull me~

[Both] Is it wrong to love you?

[Girl] Is it misfortune, is it sin, or is it someone's curse?

[Guy] Everytime I come closer, I'm pushed away~

[Girl] Blame life, blame destiny~

[Guy] Blame the earth, blame the sky for not having mercy

[Both] With every minute, I wish to love only you

I like the meaning of this lyrics..

It is so meaningful..

In this drama, the heroine is having a pitiful life..

Being beaten by her Fake Mother, Fake Sister and Fake Stepfather..

Accused with something she didn't do it..

And her Fake Mother even use her to get a fortune..

However, she fall in love with the hero in this drama a.k.a her cousin..

But what she didn't know is that 'They are not related at all'..

This drama is sad and the heroine is weak..

But I like the storyline~~ It is very interesting..

Find out more at this link: http://wiki.asianfuse.net/index.php/Bpom_Ruk_Roy_Adeed

Watch this drama at : http://oishilakorns.zxq.net/completed-subbed-lakorns/a-g/bpom-ruk-roy-adeed/

Other than that, there is also 1 Thai drama which is really nice... and it is acted by the same heroine~
The title of the drama is "King Gor Rah Kah Gor Raeng"


For more info: http://iheartlakorns.com/2008/01/subbed-lakorn-king-gor-rah-kah-gor-raeng/

Drama VS Reality~

In drama, every guy is perfect
Able to do anything for the girl they love
And their love story is so perfect

Thus, they have been the dream guy of every girl..

However, in reality,
Guy is not as perfect as our DREAM GUY
And the storyline is not as perfect as the drama..

So, REALITY and DRAMA is not the same..
360 degree difference...

Courage~

I just realized that,

To FALL IN LOVE,
Need COURAGE..

To BE WITH YOUR LOVED ONE,
Also need COURAGE..

I really admire those who have the COURAGE..
To FALL IN LOVE,
And to BE IN LOVE..

As I don't have the COURAGE...
Is one of the reason why I didn't FALL IN LOVE...

Truth?

When a GIRL have been disappointed..
Or maybe have a change of heart..
With a new direction...

They will not turn back..
To their previous life..
I realize this fact when I watch a Taiwanese drama entitle ' The Fierce Wife'

Actually, I really like this fact about GIRLS..
As they are able to look forward in their life...
Even after having to go through such a obstacle..

P/S : It was a good drama and I learnt a lot from it.. ( The Fierce Wife) - A MUST WATCH DRAMA~~
Wiki Link: http://wiki.d-addicts.com/The_Fierce_Wife
Drama Link (Eng / Chinese SUB) : http://sugoideas.com/drama-2010/the-fierce-wife/

Reality~

Is it true that LOVE is NOT EVERLASTING?

Even someone who is so loyal to his family..
For 10 years,
He did not even fall for the flirtation around him,

However,
He still have a CHANGE of HEART...

Is this means that even MARRIAGE also can't prevent the change of heart?
Even if you are MARRIED,
You will still fall for others...
And betray your partner..
Leaving her with suffer and hurt...

Don't...

Don't ever,
Don't ever,
Don't ever fall for SOMEONE who is MARRIED !!

What should I do~~

Sometime,
I wonder...

What should I do?
I don't know why..
My heart suddenly feel so lost...

Not knowing of what to do..
Lost in the world wonder without any direction..
Of what I should do~~

Mistake~~

Mistake~~
Is something that everyone have done before..

But,
When someone you LOVE and CARE did a mistake that you HATE the most~~
What will you do?
Will you be able to forgive them?
Or you cant bear with the mistake, and you let go of their hand...
As you are not able to give them a SECOND chance..

But, when YOU did a serious mistake..
Will HE let go of you..
And run away?

No, HE will stay with you..
And give you a SECOND CHANCE...
As HE love you more than YOU do...

Playboy or Playgirl?

How do we know whether a guy or a girl is a playboy or playgirl?
Is it through their way of speaking, act and their attitude?

But this is a very common answer...
Is there any more specific answer that can answer my this question?

This is because, some of my friends have been hurt by PLAYBOYS..
And in the beginning they didn't know that they are PLAYBOYS...

I really hope that my question can get a lot of answer and response so that we can learnt from it.. XD

How hurt is heartbreaking?

Heartbreaking..
Is something I often heard,
But haven't experience it before..

I often wonder..
How hurt is heartbreaking?
Will it be extremely hurt till I feel suffocate?
Or maybe I will feel like my heart being stab by a knife?
I really don't know this feeling..
And often wonder..
How will it actually be?

Will we be more mature after experiencing heartbreaking?
Or maybe we will be more fragile after experiencing heartbroken..

How do I answer to this question?
Who can answer this for me?
My curiosity has increase....

Misunderstanding~~

Misunderstanding...

Can,
STRENGTHEN a relationship..

But,
It can also,
SHATTER a relationship..

Thus,
AVOID MISUNDERSTANDING,
by
ALWAYS COMMUNICATING,
and DON'T TRY TO TEST THE RELATIONSHIP...

Wonder~~

Sometime I wonder...

If you LOVE a person,
Why would you need to LEAVE them,
Even though they also FEEL the same way..

Is it for your own sake?
Or maybe you don't want to admit,
Your feeling towards them...

(@.@)

Furthest Distance~

In this world the furthest distance,
Is not between live and death
But is..
I standing in front of you,
Yet you don't know I love you...

In this world the furthest distance,
Is not..
I standing in front of you,
Yet you don't know I love you..
But is..
I extremely love you,
Yet I can't tell you..

In this world the furthest distance,
Is not..
I can't tell you I love you..

But is..
Both also is in love,
Yet, we can't be together...

Fall for the wrong person...

This story is taken from a China drama entitle 'Fall In Love' aka Autumn In My Heart (new version)

The story start with both parents accidentally switched their children since born...
After 12 years, they only realized the mistake and changed it back...
However, the relationship between the brother and 'fake' sister exceed sibling relationship...
But no one know about it...


After 10 years, they reunite...
When the brother break off with his fiancee as he realized the one he love is his 'fake' sister..
But there is always obstacles in it...

The one moment that break my heart when watching this drama is when the father that care for his 'fake' daughter for 12 years, said something that break her heart...
This happen when the father hit his son aka the brother..

'Fake' sister : Dad, please don't hit brother anymore..It's all my fault..
Father : DON'T CALL ME DAD! I AM NOT YOUR DAD!! I ONLY HAVE ONE DAUGHTER that is XXX. OUTSIDER GET OUT OF THE WAY AND DON'T INTERRUPT WITH OUR FAMILY PROBLEM.
 (even the mother beside also didn't say anything )

Later, she went to ask the 'real' sister for help. She ask her to advise their parents that it is all her fault and not her brother fault. But what she get is a 'SLAP' from the 'real' sister..

After that, with her heartbreaking heart, she go back home..
But her birth mother also scold her and cane her...

Is this the result of FALLING IN LOVE WITH THE WRONG PERSON?
Why LOVE have to be so suffering....

Why you didn't notice me...

What is LOVE?

I have been asking this question, until one day...

I meet you..

From that day onwards..

I have been secretly watching you..

Even without you noticing...

I feel that is was my happiness, to be able to see you..

Even if it have to be from far away..

However, there were results from my waiting and patience,

As I am able to be in the same class with you..

And even sitting right behind you..

I am very happy that I can be your friend..

You have been so friendly towards me..

But yet, you can't even notice my love for you..

Even after I have done so many things for you..

Even others also notice it..

And yet, you can't feel my love..

Is it because you have someone else in your heart?

I have been silently waiting..

Waiting for you to look at me..

However, my waiting only bring heartbreak to me...

As I see you date with others..

I can only silently weep..

Without you noticing...

I really wanted to let go of you...

Because I know that you will not fall for me...

Even if it takes a lifetime..

I really regret, as I fall for someone who will not look at me..

Not even a second...

My heart felt like it is going to break,

Each time you mention about your date to me..

Why can't you see my expression...

Is it because..

The person in your heart is not me...

How am I going to give you up?

Or should I just confess to you? That I have been one sided love for 3 years..

Or maybe I should just wish you happy with your date..And just buried my feeling deep inside me for my whole life...

I really hope that you will look at me for one time..

Just one time...

But I know it is impossible...

Now I have learnt something..

To LOVE someone is hard...

But to FORGET someone is even harder...

And to forget someone that you didn't confess is the HARDEST...

How would you feel?

How would you feel?

When two of you LOVE each other,

But are forced to separate,

For the sake of others..

How would you feel?
When the person you LOVE,
Is going to married,
But the bride is NOT YOU...

How would you feel?
When you are asked to help in the weeding of your LOVED one..
Can you handle your heartbroken while pretending as if nothing happen,
So that you won't hurt others..

How would you feel? How would you feel? How would you feel?
Will you be able to pretend as if you're happy?
Even though you know that it is impossible for you to be with HIM..

Different~

Sometime,
What you WANT and what you can ACHIEVE is totally different..
Too different that you can't even imagine..

However, if you didn't try your best to achieve it..
You will REGRET it later..

Regret till you will REMEMBER it forever..

So,
When you have decided to do something..
Try your best..Give your all to it..
And don't ever give up even if you face obstacles..
Because there is NO SECOND CHANCE..

I Wonder...

Sometime I wonder,
What is LOVE?

How do you know that ONE is LOVE?
And not an illusion..
Or maybe an interest..

I wonder...
Who can answer my this SILLY question..
Or maybe this question does not have an answer..

As I am amateur in this topic...
Thus, I can't answer this question even after I gain a lot of experience through others...

Curious..

I have always wonder,
Is it true that a Guy will change his mind as fast as a wind?
What 'he' had promise will be forgotten as soon as his mood change?

Well,
This is based on TRUE STORY..
REAL LIFE STORY...

Is it true that GUY hate his GIRLFRIEND that like to control?

If it's true...

Then !!
Why did a GUY dump his GIRLFRIEND just because she always obey him and let him make decision?
The reason is because SHE treat HIM too good..
And he don't like it..


So, does it means that GUY like a GIRLFRIEND that will control them?

OF COURSE NOT!!!
There is also a GUY who DUMP his GIRLFRIEND just because she controlled him too much...

SO, GUYS OUT THERE!!!!
What you want us GIRLS to do?
Neither can we CONTROLLED nor BE CONTROLLED by you?

IT WAS SUCH A HEADACHE QUESTION THAT YOU GUYS HAVE POSTED TO US, GIRLS...
We don't know what you want, nor did you tell us..

And the only way you guys want to let go of this problem is just through BREAK-UP..
And the ONE who is HURT is always us.. GIRLS..

I have always wanted to ask this problem..
But,
Who should I ask?
And how would you answer me..

*curious curious*

Love Cycle~

Love is always like that..

She LOVE me,
I LOVE you,
Yet you LOVE him.

So, it's not easy to find your other half..
When YOU found your other half, you must appreciate it !!

Don't regret after you have lose it.

Don't Regret After It's Too Late...

Recently I read a story in FACEBOOK..
A very touching story..

It is about a husband who had an affair, and wanted to divorce with his wife whom he spent 10 years time together...
And of course, the wife is very heartbroken...
Yet, she made a decision to let go of his husband with a condition that they will only divorce after 1 month time since their child will be having exam..
During the 1 month time, she request her husband to carry her from room to the entrance every early in the morning...
While fulfilling her request, he find back the feeling he had for his wife...
And when on the last day, he made a decision to break off with his girlfriend to be with his wife...

But what he doesn't know is that his wife had CANCER and has been suffering for so long...
He didn't even realized it since he is busy with his affair..
When he went back home...
He saw his wife lying down.. DEAD...
All this time, his wife know she is going to die...
Yet she want their son to have a good memory about his father...

I feel so touched when I read this story that I even shed tears while reading...
So, don't do something that will make you regret for your whole life...

For the full story.. You can visit this page..
http://www.facebook.com/note.php?note_id=10150257510555503&id=1278406007

Let Go~

Couple who LOVE each other...

But are forced to let go of their LOVE...

For the sake of others...

The person who first let it go..

Create a LIE...

So that the other half will be able to live happily...

However, the LIAR have to suffer from behind...

With a heart that is extremely painful...

Like a KNIFE being stab on it...

Yet still have to pretend being happy about it..

Forcing ownself to SMILE...

Speak in a NORMAL tone...

But in the heart is extremely hurt, painful and felt like dying...

And the one being LIED know nothing about this...

Doesn't know the sacrifice the LIAR have made...

Leading a normal life...

Yet the LIAR have to SUFFER alone..REMINISCE about their PAST...and CRY ALONE...

TO LEAVE A PERSON YOU LOVE IS VERY PAINFUL..

BUT TO LEAVE A PERSON IN WHICH BOTH LOVE EACH OTHER IS EVEN MORE PAINFUL..

Lied!!!

LIE by someone you care is UNBEARABLE..
LIE to protect someone is UNREASONABLE..
LIE is something UNFORGETTABLE..
LIE will be UNFORGIVABLE...

So, don't LIE as LIE is
To hide your own GUILTY..
To cover your own WRONGDOING..
And to avoid being PUNISH..

Your LIE will HURT others and you will REGRET it !!

First Love Story (Part 2)

After that incident, I tried to forget that incident. I become more cheerful and act as if nothing has happen before. This is because I wanted to go back to the time before I express my feeling to him. I think my decision during that time is my BIGGEST mistake. I would not repeat my mistake ever again.

However, nothing is ever right for me...

Tomorrow will be the day where I will move to my new home. In my suprise, my neighbour is HIM. The HIM which I want to forget and want to avoid. I have no choice but to meet him everday. To make the matter worst, my dad is a best friend of HIS dad. So, I will meet him even more often. To end this humiliation matter, I went to ask him to forget that matter. He said that is the NIGHTMARE in his life. This has ease my worry and I really glad that I still can meet with him without worry. Eventhough, I know he still DISLIKE me. But I really hope we can be friend. Thus, I will let go of this feeling and find a guy that like me for who am I.

Two month have passed, and I thought that I have let go my feeling until when I saw HIM with his girlfriend. I don't know why, but my heart aching. At first I thought is maybe because I feel shocked. But later, I know that I still can't give up my feeling for him. I really afraid that, I can't give up this feeling for a lifetime.

I don't understand MYSELF

Sometime,
I don't understand myself...
I don't understand how I feel...
I don't understand what I want...
And I don't know what to do...

Does this problem occur to most of the people?
Or maybe only me...

It is a trouble for me,
As I don't know my own feeling...
I hope to know more about my own feeling...
So,
I can make a better decision that I won't regret.

Right and Wrong!!

Sometime, we don't really know what is 'Right and Wrong'...
But, when we realize it...
It is already too late...

Even when we feel regret...
But we don't have the courage to admit the mistake or even find a way to correct it...
So, what can we do about it...
I really don't know...

But, I only want to forget about it..
And only hope that time can bring the matter down..
Even how I feel..

But I cant escape from being guilty...
And...
I really hope that I cant forget, forget about it...
But my mistake is too hard to be forgotten..
And I have bring trouble to others...
I really feel HOPELESS, USELESS and CARELESS..
Hopeless and useless because I cant do what is right...
And Careless... For doing making the wrong decision...

Memory~

Today is Valentine day...
This is a day in which every couple have been waiting for..
However, for those who is far away from their other half, will feel lonely...

Today is also a bad day for me...
As someone just ask me something which I don't want to remember...
However, I can't avoid the question...
But I can't give the exact answer...
So, I just give a simple and inaccurate answer which is 'Yes' or 'No'..
I felt so hopeless...
As I can't even solve my own problem...
And cause other's trouble....

Am I A Disaster!

Sometime I wonder...
Did I appear at the place that I shouldn't be...
And cause a big chaos...

Often I felt...
That I am a disaster...
That cause others to suffer because of my action...

I really hope that during that time...
I am not at there...
So, I won't make the mistake..

Now, I don't know how to make up for it...
I really hope...
Someone can help me..
Teach me...
How to solve this problem....

Heartbreak

Sometime, it doesn't need to be lover who break our heart
Even our family member can also hurt our heart

Each time when I hear her speak
My heart will feel the pain that it is unbearable
I don't know why cant I have a happy family
My only wish for this new year is to have a harmony and happy family
Is it hard for it to be realize?

I hope it can come true
I don't know how long more can I take
I really scared one day I can't take it anymore and breakdown

Because of this experience
It had make me lost faith in love
As I see in LOVE is mostly hurt, hurt and hurt

Sometime, I even feel that
I wanted to get out of this place
I really hope that I can do so
But I know it cannot happen

So, the only things I can do is prayed so that I can live harmony again