Why you didn't notice me...

What is LOVE?

I have been asking this question, until one day...

I meet you..

From that day onwards..

I have been secretly watching you..

Even without you noticing...

I feel that is was my happiness, to be able to see you..

Even if it have to be from far away..

However, there were results from my waiting and patience,

As I am able to be in the same class with you..

And even sitting right behind you..

I am very happy that I can be your friend..

You have been so friendly towards me..

But yet, you can't even notice my love for you..

Even after I have done so many things for you..

Even others also notice it..

And yet, you can't feel my love..

Is it because you have someone else in your heart?

I have been silently waiting..

Waiting for you to look at me..

However, my waiting only bring heartbreak to me...

As I see you date with others..

I can only silently weep..

Without you noticing...

I really wanted to let go of you...

Because I know that you will not fall for me...

Even if it takes a lifetime..

I really regret, as I fall for someone who will not look at me..

Not even a second...

My heart felt like it is going to break,

Each time you mention about your date to me..

Why can't you see my expression...

Is it because..

The person in your heart is not me...

How am I going to give you up?

Or should I just confess to you? That I have been one sided love for 3 years..

Or maybe I should just wish you happy with your date..And just buried my feeling deep inside me for my whole life...

I really hope that you will look at me for one time..

Just one time...

But I know it is impossible...

Now I have learnt something..

To LOVE someone is hard...

But to FORGET someone is even harder...

And to forget someone that you didn't confess is the HARDEST...

How would you feel?

How would you feel?

When two of you LOVE each other,

But are forced to separate,

For the sake of others..

How would you feel?
When the person you LOVE,
Is going to married,
But the bride is NOT YOU...

How would you feel?
When you are asked to help in the weeding of your LOVED one..
Can you handle your heartbroken while pretending as if nothing happen,
So that you won't hurt others..

How would you feel? How would you feel? How would you feel?
Will you be able to pretend as if you're happy?
Even though you know that it is impossible for you to be with HIM..

Different~

Sometime,
What you WANT and what you can ACHIEVE is totally different..
Too different that you can't even imagine..

However, if you didn't try your best to achieve it..
You will REGRET it later..

Regret till you will REMEMBER it forever..

So,
When you have decided to do something..
Try your best..Give your all to it..
And don't ever give up even if you face obstacles..
Because there is NO SECOND CHANCE..

I Wonder...

Sometime I wonder,
What is LOVE?

How do you know that ONE is LOVE?
And not an illusion..
Or maybe an interest..

I wonder...
Who can answer my this SILLY question..
Or maybe this question does not have an answer..

As I am amateur in this topic...
Thus, I can't answer this question even after I gain a lot of experience through others...

Curious..

I have always wonder,
Is it true that a Guy will change his mind as fast as a wind?
What 'he' had promise will be forgotten as soon as his mood change?

Well,
This is based on TRUE STORY..
REAL LIFE STORY...

Is it true that GUY hate his GIRLFRIEND that like to control?

If it's true...

Then !!
Why did a GUY dump his GIRLFRIEND just because she always obey him and let him make decision?
The reason is because SHE treat HIM too good..
And he don't like it..


So, does it means that GUY like a GIRLFRIEND that will control them?

OF COURSE NOT!!!
There is also a GUY who DUMP his GIRLFRIEND just because she controlled him too much...

SO, GUYS OUT THERE!!!!
What you want us GIRLS to do?
Neither can we CONTROLLED nor BE CONTROLLED by you?

IT WAS SUCH A HEADACHE QUESTION THAT YOU GUYS HAVE POSTED TO US, GIRLS...
We don't know what you want, nor did you tell us..

And the only way you guys want to let go of this problem is just through BREAK-UP..
And the ONE who is HURT is always us.. GIRLS..

I have always wanted to ask this problem..
But,
Who should I ask?
And how would you answer me..

*curious curious*

Love Cycle~

Love is always like that..

She LOVE me,
I LOVE you,
Yet you LOVE him.

So, it's not easy to find your other half..
When YOU found your other half, you must appreciate it !!

Don't regret after you have lose it.

Don't Regret After It's Too Late...

Recently I read a story in FACEBOOK..
A very touching story..

It is about a husband who had an affair, and wanted to divorce with his wife whom he spent 10 years time together...
And of course, the wife is very heartbroken...
Yet, she made a decision to let go of his husband with a condition that they will only divorce after 1 month time since their child will be having exam..
During the 1 month time, she request her husband to carry her from room to the entrance every early in the morning...
While fulfilling her request, he find back the feeling he had for his wife...
And when on the last day, he made a decision to break off with his girlfriend to be with his wife...

But what he doesn't know is that his wife had CANCER and has been suffering for so long...
He didn't even realized it since he is busy with his affair..
When he went back home...
He saw his wife lying down.. DEAD...
All this time, his wife know she is going to die...
Yet she want their son to have a good memory about his father...

I feel so touched when I read this story that I even shed tears while reading...
So, don't do something that will make you regret for your whole life...

For the full story.. You can visit this page..
http://www.facebook.com/note.php?note_id=10150257510555503&id=1278406007

Let Go~

Couple who LOVE each other...

But are forced to let go of their LOVE...

For the sake of others...

The person who first let it go..

Create a LIE...

So that the other half will be able to live happily...

However, the LIAR have to suffer from behind...

With a heart that is extremely painful...

Like a KNIFE being stab on it...

Yet still have to pretend being happy about it..

Forcing ownself to SMILE...

Speak in a NORMAL tone...

But in the heart is extremely hurt, painful and felt like dying...

And the one being LIED know nothing about this...

Doesn't know the sacrifice the LIAR have made...

Leading a normal life...

Yet the LIAR have to SUFFER alone..REMINISCE about their PAST...and CRY ALONE...

TO LEAVE A PERSON YOU LOVE IS VERY PAINFUL..

BUT TO LEAVE A PERSON IN WHICH BOTH LOVE EACH OTHER IS EVEN MORE PAINFUL..

Lied!!!

LIE by someone you care is UNBEARABLE..
LIE to protect someone is UNREASONABLE..
LIE is something UNFORGETTABLE..
LIE will be UNFORGIVABLE...

So, don't LIE as LIE is
To hide your own GUILTY..
To cover your own WRONGDOING..
And to avoid being PUNISH..

Your LIE will HURT others and you will REGRET it !!

First Love Story (Part 2)

After that incident, I tried to forget that incident. I become more cheerful and act as if nothing has happen before. This is because I wanted to go back to the time before I express my feeling to him. I think my decision during that time is my BIGGEST mistake. I would not repeat my mistake ever again.

However, nothing is ever right for me...

Tomorrow will be the day where I will move to my new home. In my suprise, my neighbour is HIM. The HIM which I want to forget and want to avoid. I have no choice but to meet him everday. To make the matter worst, my dad is a best friend of HIS dad. So, I will meet him even more often. To end this humiliation matter, I went to ask him to forget that matter. He said that is the NIGHTMARE in his life. This has ease my worry and I really glad that I still can meet with him without worry. Eventhough, I know he still DISLIKE me. But I really hope we can be friend. Thus, I will let go of this feeling and find a guy that like me for who am I.

Two month have passed, and I thought that I have let go my feeling until when I saw HIM with his girlfriend. I don't know why, but my heart aching. At first I thought is maybe because I feel shocked. But later, I know that I still can't give up my feeling for him. I really afraid that, I can't give up this feeling for a lifetime.

I don't understand MYSELF

Sometime,
I don't understand myself...
I don't understand how I feel...
I don't understand what I want...
And I don't know what to do...

Does this problem occur to most of the people?
Or maybe only me...

It is a trouble for me,
As I don't know my own feeling...
I hope to know more about my own feeling...
So,
I can make a better decision that I won't regret.

Right and Wrong!!

Sometime, we don't really know what is 'Right and Wrong'...
But, when we realize it...
It is already too late...

Even when we feel regret...
But we don't have the courage to admit the mistake or even find a way to correct it...
So, what can we do about it...
I really don't know...

But, I only want to forget about it..
And only hope that time can bring the matter down..
Even how I feel..

But I cant escape from being guilty...
And...
I really hope that I cant forget, forget about it...
But my mistake is too hard to be forgotten..
And I have bring trouble to others...
I really feel HOPELESS, USELESS and CARELESS..
Hopeless and useless because I cant do what is right...
And Careless... For doing making the wrong decision...

Memory~

Today is Valentine day...
This is a day in which every couple have been waiting for..
However, for those who is far away from their other half, will feel lonely...

Today is also a bad day for me...
As someone just ask me something which I don't want to remember...
However, I can't avoid the question...
But I can't give the exact answer...
So, I just give a simple and inaccurate answer which is 'Yes' or 'No'..
I felt so hopeless...
As I can't even solve my own problem...
And cause other's trouble....

Am I A Disaster!

Sometime I wonder...
Did I appear at the place that I shouldn't be...
And cause a big chaos...

Often I felt...
That I am a disaster...
That cause others to suffer because of my action...

I really hope that during that time...
I am not at there...
So, I won't make the mistake..

Now, I don't know how to make up for it...
I really hope...
Someone can help me..
Teach me...
How to solve this problem....

Heartbreak

Sometime, it doesn't need to be lover who break our heart
Even our family member can also hurt our heart

Each time when I hear her speak
My heart will feel the pain that it is unbearable
I don't know why cant I have a happy family
My only wish for this new year is to have a harmony and happy family
Is it hard for it to be realize?

I hope it can come true
I don't know how long more can I take
I really scared one day I can't take it anymore and breakdown

Because of this experience
It had make me lost faith in love
As I see in LOVE is mostly hurt, hurt and hurt

Sometime, I even feel that
I wanted to get out of this place
I really hope that I can do so
But I know it cannot happen

So, the only things I can do is prayed so that I can live harmony again